Its a past tense

ZANESSA

this name...

its a past?

i dont really know...

i really want it to be a future...

but not past...

please..

i m begging...

coz it is not a present...

Best and Worst bout gathering...

best thing is that i gotta hang out with friends..

and chat about those old old memories...

we have a lot of funny yet memorable ones...

and we talk a lot about those memories...

and we talk about scandals when we were young...

it is fun....

but the worst is that they never keep track of the time..( i m nt bashing anyway)

T_T

i wished they will keep track of time...

then i'll wont be worry about mum worries bout me...

my old classmates arent the ones that can keep in track of time...

i dont want my bad habit to overtake me!!!

yeah...

i love to ffk...

but today...

i dont want it to overtake me!!!

i will stand up to my bad habit...

coz it is time to change...

good or bad...

i need 2 change...

to be a better me...

i want to play with my primary school friends...

and 2 weeks later with high school friends...

and aso my college friends...

so i need 2 change...

coz i want to maintain good friendship with them...

that's why i am going....

never

never overestimate my powers

never think i am superior

never look down on yourself when you are in front of me..

never think i m the best...

never rely everything on me too much...

coz i dislike these type of person...

when you are overestimating me and even think i m superior...

i can say we cant be closer to you...

coz u treated me as a boss instead of a friend...

never look down of yourself...

mebe 1 or 2 times it is still acceptable...

but if you always look down on yourself everytime i see you...

i guess the hardworkin i been used to you is a waste coz u din think for urself..

never think i m the best...

coz i dont like to be the best...

the number 1...

the highest of all...

coz it makes me loose my balance...

and i think everyone is the best in everything...

never rely on me too much...

coz too much rely makes me feel that you are trying to get benefit from me...

and everything that you do wants my opinion..

makes me think u dont have opinion...

and i know that i dont have an opinion...

and my mum knows that...

everyone thinks i am confident...

but i am not...

everyone thinks i am good in maths...

but i am not...

everyone thinks i am strict and moody...

but i am not...

everyone think i am stern...

but i am not...

if u gotta know me, you'll know i am the most easy, outgoing, fun person...

i might be a bit stingy sometimes...

haha...

if u gotta know me...

you'll think i am a crazy type of girl...

and you'll probably say this to me...

"the first time i see you, you looks really pro and scary...

but after i know you, you are the most funny person..."

yep...tat's me...

i m actually a person without mood swings...

without any expression...

when you got to know me...

we can be the besties out of besties...

but if you dont know me...

we can be strangers out of strangers...

so bear with me...