男女生的友情原来这么不一样~

小学的时候，
男生粘着男生，
女生粘着女生，
他们永远都会有谈不完的话题，
渐渐地，
可以达到知心友的境界，
中学时，
大家开始被分配到不同的学校，
不同的学校，
感情也会慢慢疏远，
最终，
小学的女生，
互相见面，
就像两个熟悉的陌生人，
了解对方的过去，
但却不了解对方的现在，
小学的男生，
互相见面，
就像两个老朋友一样，
有谈不完的话题，
及时再见多几次面，
还是没办法聊完，
小学的男生女生，
同时见面，
虽然小学时并不很熟悉，
但是却有聊不完的话题~
中学后，
同样的东西又再次上演，
那么大学呢？
会吗？
我不想耶~
因为，
我已经找到的知己~♥
谢谢~

We cant be besties...if...

we cant be besties...
if you depends on me too much...
we cant be besties...
when you always say i m the best when i m just now...
we cant be besties...
when you constantly say you are the worst out of all...
we cant be besties...
when you started to think that i m far more superior than you...

so stop thinking that you are lower level than me...
i rather to have a higher or same level person instead of lower level...
dont try to lower yourself...
coz u can be higher...
when u think i m much more superior...
then...
i might as well say goodbye to the word bestie...
we can still be friends...
but at times...
when you depends on me too much...
it will become a burden to me...
and i really hate it...
and i would really try to throw that burden away...
there are a few friends pretty much as the same level as i am...
moreover sometimes...
they might lower their level...
but they pretty much stand at my back and increase their level when i m in a higher level..
so that balances it out...

I should stop at this very minute

I should stop digging...
because i cant be sure that i wont fall into the deadly trap...
this time...
its been 2 or three years since the last time i've been fall into a trap...
and wasted some time to pull myself back again...
last time..
i found flaws...
but this time...
i didnt...
and this makes me more afraid that i will totally fall into the trap again...
and this time...i will hurt more badly than last time..
because this time...
the relationship is too close...
and this time..
it just used up a few months where last time it almost 6 months...
i should stop..
before i go to a road where i cant u turn...
and probably we wont be that close again if i continue...
i should stop...before the next mistake overpower me...
I SHOULD STOP!!

讨厌我自己

有时候

我是个很不会去争取的人

往往

我都会

不由自主的后悔

因为我

不会去争取

不懂得去争取

没有主见

让人家认为

我并没有自己的想法

真的

我很讨厌这样的自己

因为这样

是我少了很多的机会

我不会说不

但是

我知道对错

我讨厌我自己

因为

我真的不知道

我还会离谱到什么程度

会不会

可能我就真的无法自己做决定了呢??