Its a past tense

ZANESSA

this name...

its a past?

i dont really know...

i really want it to be a future...

but not past...

please..

i m begging...

coz it is not a present...

Best and Worst bout gathering...

best thing is that i gotta hang out with friends..

and chat about those old old memories...

we have a lot of funny yet memorable ones...

and we talk a lot about those memories...

and we talk about scandals when we were young...

it is fun....

but the worst is that they never keep track of the time..( i m nt bashing anyway)

T_T

i wished they will keep track of time...

then i'll wont be worry about mum worries bout me...

my old classmates arent the ones that can keep in track of time...

i dont want my bad habit to overtake me!!!

yeah...

i love to ffk...

but today...

i dont want it to overtake me!!!

i will stand up to my bad habit...

coz it is time to change...

good or bad...

i need 2 change...

to be a better me...

i want to play with my primary school friends...

and 2 weeks later with high school friends...

and aso my college friends...

so i need 2 change...

coz i want to maintain good friendship with them...

that's why i am going....

never

never overestimate my powers

never think i am superior

never look down on yourself when you are in front of me..

never think i m the best...

never rely everything on me too much...

coz i dislike these type of person...

when you are overestimating me and even think i m superior...

i can say we cant be closer to you...

coz u treated me as a boss instead of a friend...

never look down of yourself...

mebe 1 or 2 times it is still acceptable...

but if you always look down on yourself everytime i see you...

i guess the hardworkin i been used to you is a waste coz u din think for urself..

never think i m the best...

coz i dont like to be the best...

the number 1...

the highest of all...

coz it makes me loose my balance...

and i think everyone is the best in everything...

never rely on me too much...

coz too much rely makes me feel that you are trying to get benefit from me...

and everything that you do wants my opinion..

makes me think u dont have opinion...

and i know that i dont have an opinion...

and my mum knows that...

everyone thinks i am confident...

but i am not...

everyone thinks i am good in maths...

but i am not...

everyone thinks i am strict and moody...

but i am not...

everyone think i am stern...

but i am not...

if u gotta know me, you'll know i am the most easy, outgoing, fun person...

i might be a bit stingy sometimes...

haha...

if u gotta know me...

you'll think i am a crazy type of girl...

and you'll probably say this to me...

"the first time i see you, you looks really pro and scary...

but after i know you, you are the most funny person..."

yep...tat's me...

i m actually a person without mood swings...

without any expression...

when you got to know me...

we can be the besties out of besties...

but if you dont know me...

we can be strangers out of strangers...

so bear with me...

=.=

4th post for November...=.=

am i that emo?

=.=

whatever...

studying is so boring...

i really want to voice out my opinion on fb...

but i spammed quite a lot recently..

not good right...

should go study not fb-ing...

and btw....fb is damn boring...=.=

sien larrr...

anything 2 do beside playing on fb???

gaming?

no way...

it will be so addicted...

then i will face humiliation when i get my results...

NO WAY!!!

sien lerrrr....

macam mana oo??

should go continue study...

Malaysian Study, i m goin to get an A out of you.....

beware...btw...

are the lecturers goin 2 give out marks starting tomorrow???

Hell NO!!!!!

eeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppppppppp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~!~~~!!!!

Something to laugh about for this sem...=)

week before mid terms... (english class darminder checking people's research paper outline)

A: Who do u think is cute in our class?

X: J.

A: S aso.

X: He looks a bit like a korean singer, Taecyeon.

SL: No lar.

A: Oh, B is aso cute...

X,SL: agree...

(this part was too long i cant really recall actually...but i did my best)

week after mid terms(english class argumentative essay)

12 ppl have the topic animal testing should be legalize...need to separate into 2 teams...

A need to choose either B or X since both of them sit in between the 2 circles...

is it coincidence or is it juz randomly pick???

A picked B...not X....=)

prom night ( after prom) 12 Nov

A: How are u going to get back?

X: I m followin B's car, we r neigbor.

A: Oh really ar???

X: Yeah..

A: Btw, B is cute in the outfit..

X:LOL-ing

A: Do B has a lot of opposite sex surrounding B?

X: I dunno....

Monday 15 Nov ( the school day after prom night, before class)

A(walks in the class): B is so cute! B is so cute! I i were an opposite sex i will totally date B...(lol...)

X: LOL-ing

A:Do u like B?? (wtf?)

X: Why?

A: Oh, lets say if S n B which 1 u choose?

X: Of coz B lar...

A: But S is like a korean singer...

X: =.= den??

Prom Photos (A n M pic)

B: Nice~

A: Thanks handsome~

(LOL-ing again)

Nov 16 Facebook post...

A to B: AWWWWWWW <33

(wtf???lol....hahaha....stalkin much....hmmmm....kinda wanna "like" the wall post)

18 Nov class

A collecting money frm everyone for photocopy

B gives money to A

A shake his hand ( says no...)

A walk away collecting other ppl 1...

SL burst out laughing....

22 Nov class presentation

B presenting A staring at B...(or mebe focused???...but wasnt A suppose to focus on the slides and B instead oni B??!!)

A: If i were a homosexual, i will totally go after B....

N: (as if u arent 1??? i tot u are 1???!!!)

22 Nov around 12pm...

B: Can i sit here. Tell ya, later NI come she will talk bout A.

X: Y?

NI comes

NI: A~( laughs......)

NI: Do u c A???

X: A just walk by just now....y?

NI: A stops B n.......

2nd Dec

lol...our game is ON!!!

haha...

should have look at A face when A write things on B's back...

and omg....!!!

some 1 write

"i want to kiss you" behind B back!!!!!!

3rd Dec

FL added B as fren in fb...

lol...

another ppl interested in B...

18 Jan...someone call ML added B as fren in fb...asked B if B likes opposite sex..LOL...and ML is A's fren...is A spreading rumours bout B being a same sex lover? LOL

如果

如果一年前，我没有选择这条路我现在会怎样呢？

我现在，应该是在honeymoon吧~

或许，现在可能跟同班同学一起出游

如果一年前，我没有选择这条路，

我应该还是一个幼稚、没想法的人吧~

如果如果。。。

我没有选择这条路，

我的人生会怎样呢？

我会辍学， 去找工吗？

我会到处无所事事吗？

说真的，出来社会，

我真的改变了很多，

我学会了许多中华学不到的东西，

我开始比同年的朋友想更多了~

我开始想我的未来。。

我的工作。。

我生存的意义。。

进学院，让我开始一步一步地踏进社会。。

每一天都是新的一天

学的也是新的东西。。

每天每天，我都感到充足。。

因为我也认识了许多能渡万难的朋友。。。

18岁规划未来，并不是一件难事，

但是要规划并实行，这才是人生的一大考验~

我要规划我的未来。。

因为我要为我的未来作出一丁点的贡献~

emo again

I am emo ...

yes i am...

sometimes, its really hard to control yourself not to be emo...

especially when u r going to have tons of test and you cant hardly breathe...

haizzz...

Ottukea??

Life is JUST LIKE A MOVIE...it is true...

human's life is like filming a story...

you yourself is the director and scriptwriter and producer of this movie...

you can try to make the story amazing...

or you can demonstrate the story really lousy...

it depends on you...

Oh gosh, i am mumbling again...

whatever...

i want to score HD in Business Principles...

i want to score at least C in Cts or better 1...D!!!

i want to score a HD in Msian Studies...

coz these are those that i am partially confident with...

so, stop blogging...

study is the best way...

but i am damn tired..

tmrw need 2 wake up at 6.45 early early altho my first class is at 11am...

whatever...at least i can gain some reading n studying time...

besides, i can sleep more on thursday since my class ends at 12.30!!!!

wooohooooo!!!!!!

den friday is PROM...

omg!!! prom....lol..

i am still searching for someone to fetch home...

coz wouldnt want mummy n daddy drive all the way to renaissance to fetch me....

try to find the guy that live near to fetch the 3 of us back..

and omg....

argumentative esssay!!!!!!

when will the guy email to me...

this guy is another guy...

it is already tuesday but there is no sign of his part....

what is he doing???

i want to pass up on time 1 ler....

plzz

so tmrw need 2 find 2 guys to finish the most concerned things...

till then...

Taeyeon unnie, nol yippodal...

jinjia yippoldal...

na neun chuwaso...=)

damn so frustrated right now

2nd sem is getting into my nerves right now...

atm ....i am at the corridor...

boring-ing...

doing nothing...

altho i have a lot of things to do...

but i really cant do on my own...

coz they are groupwork...

i wanna scream out really loudly....

i want to break out from everything...

and i wanna cry out loudly...

can i??

why dont they tell me earlier when they got problems...

instead of telling me last mins??

i want to say i gave up...

but i cant...

coz they are my work too....

my tears wanna flow out right now....

but i couldnt ...

coz i am at public...

unless i want to go to toilet and cry myself out...

and that will probably make the headline....

right???

i wanna call mummy and tell her all my frustrations...

but i couldnt right....

coz she has some problems right now....

i really wanna cry....

yesterday was a fun day...

i throw away everything that i should do...

and enjoyed a day in front of the tv with my family...

i missed the days sitting with my family watching tv....

i missed daddy at home...

i missed days when i talk with my dear sister everyday during the journey back from school...

now i talks to my mum somehow....

but sometimes...

i would like to talk to sis too....

i depends a lot on mum....

and i cant imagine what will i do without her....

oh god....my tears is falling soon...

must quit writing before i cry....

or else it will be super embarassing....!!!!

haizz....what was i thinking???

i really dont know what i am thinking..

sometimes i really wanna study...

work harder in the lessons...

but i dont have the will in doing it...

what shall i do??

i cant just neglect it right??

i cant just let it fail cant i??

Mischievous kiss...

Jung So Min is sooo....cute....

Kim Hyun Joong is sooo....cool....

Starting September 1, 2010....=)

is 2010 a disaster to k-pop band?

Super Junior

HanGeng left....

HanGeng

KangIn in army...

DBSK...disband...

2PM....

JaeBeom...aka leader left....

Then, Wonder Girls.....

SunMi left the group....

HyeRim replaces SunMi....

lastly is our dear SS501,

Leader, Kim Hyun Joong had signed a contract with YESASIA...

Later on, Park Jung Min (a.k.a. Mal/Horse) signed contract with CNR Media...

Then, Kim Hyung Jun have solo activity in Malaysia & Singapore...

And, finally Heo Young Saeng and Kim Kyu Jong had been having vacations in Japan & USA....

It's been 2 months and nothing was told, if SS501 will be disbanded or what...

but 1 thing is that i knew Hyung Jun has stated that he will not sign contract the same company with any of the members...

Lets just hope Young Saeng and Kyu Jong will sign contract with the same company....=)

Newly addicted thingy...=)

i am addicted again...

b'cause...Suju didnt have any new things to come out...

since they are busy with Super Show3...

so...i might as well search for new addicts...

and i am IN LOVE with God of Study...

especially...

~BaekHyun HyunJung~

they areeee...sooooo....adorable....

or can i say.....

SeungHo and JiYeon....

they are my dongsaengs...

but they are soooo cute....~!!!!!!

btw...he also appeared in her group...T-ara's mv...Lies....

and her first kiss....was stolen by HIM....

b'cause of Super Show 3.....awww.....cute minnie...flying with balloons....with teuki( not shown in the piccy...)....

Poor swollen finger

yep...

it is just like what was at the title...my finger was swollen...

and it looks abnormal...

it is RED...

and it is HUGE...

i cant bend my finger nor i cant touch it...

because it is so painful...

but mummy couldnt find any openings on my finger that caused it swollen...

i even use needle to poke it...

mum use scissors to try to make a hole out of it so i can empty out whatever that was inside...

but...there was no cure...

HELP~!

sungminnie...or should i say minsica....

he is so adorable in girl's outfit...

sungmin oppa...fighting...although you wanna change...

to become more manlier...

and that makes you a little woody...

but cute and adorable is your charm...

pls dont try to change so much...!

My boring life K-Drama addicted

As i said in the last post there are a lot of Korean dramas

that i've watched....

Idol majored dramas...

Sweet 18...

a story about an arranged marraige between a 18 year old girl and a 28?? year old prosecutor...

Boys Over Flowers...

A story about a poor girl who started her high school in a very famous school and eventually she was known by the F4...

Goong/ Princess Hours

Another story about arranged married...between a prince and a girl...but the prince has a lover and the girl was originally going to marry the other prince who was previously the rightful throne....

Then, some touching dramas....heartwarming...

Autumn in My Heart/ Autumn Tales...

The story begins with a pair of siblings who are very fond of each other...

by chance, they discovered that the sister was being mistook with other girl...

both of the girls was exchanged back to their own families...

the family then brings the brother and the original sister to overseas and left the poor sister...

a few years later, the brother went back and the siblings met again...

somehow, they fell in love with each other...

but the sister doesnt have much time left...since she was sick...

Summer Scent...

story about a guy's dead girlfriend gives out her heart to another girl and eventually...

he fell in love with the girl who receive her girlfriend's heart unknowingly...

Winter Sonata...

story about a pair of lovers...the guy got hit and he lost his memory...the girl thought he was dead...a few years later...they met and it is time for the girl to help him to search for his memories...

Introducing..family themed dramas...(i love this type of dramas...)

Dear Heaven...

This is also a great drama...but a little too much conflict...

It is about a poor girl who lived under a very bad condition...

and her step mother bullies her a lot...

then she met a guy and fell in love but her step mother try to stop her...

because the guy should be falling in love with her niece instead of her step daughter...

Next, is Temptation of Wife...

A story about a woman who was betrayed by her own husband and childhood best friend...

eventually, she was killed by her husband...

but she was lucky enough to be saved by a guy...

and having her disguise as his own dead sister to take her revenge...

onto the husband and best friend...

so intense....

Lastly, is one of the recent and the one i've been rewatch and rewatch again n again....

Family Honor...

A story about a traditional family...and a modern family

the girl, was a widow...

was married but eventually her husband died before they even go honeymoon...

and was a very calm and warm hearted girl...

the guy, was a businessman...

cruel and cold hearted by the influence of his dad...

2 different people met each other...

and by chance the guy was slapped 3 times...

i think this is the drama with the most kissing scenes...

below are some of the kissing scenes in the drama...

(only for the main couple...there are 7 couples in this whole drama...)

and a lot of slapping...=)

My boring life K-Pop addicted

My boring life begins

On sometime around October 2009...

altho i have SPM on December...

but my boring life...

is fulfilled by all those K Drama and K Pop

(this blog post is going to say about all K Pop)

<3333

First, because of Boys Over Flowers...i started to like K Drama...

(i watched other k drama but it didnt interest me)

altho i am not a fan of Lee Min Ho and Gu Hye Sun...but i love that drama...=)

Ok, ok....

because of Yoon Ji Hoo....whoops...its Kim Hyun Joong from that drama...

i got to know...

SS501

because of Hyun Joong, i liked SS501 sub unit...

especially the guy that stands at the middle...(KyuJong)

then, because of SS501 i liked KARA..

mebe coz they are in the same company...

especially HaRa (the one with a white hat)

after Kara....

i find out that there more girl groups....

for examples Girls Generation...

the No 1 girl group...with killer legs...

because of Girls Generation...

I noticed 2PM...which Girls Generation attended their idol show....

with "Seducing Jessica" by JaeBeom...

then, coz 2PM and 2AM are brothers group...i start to know them...

especially JoKwon....

after that...i get so bored...

then i remembered that my cousin told me about SJ-M....

i did heard before about SJ...especially their Sorry Sorry becomes a hit...

so because of boredom...i go look for Super Junior....

and i fell in love with them...

and because of Seohyun and Yonghwa in WGM...i like CN Blue...

Sucker Punch!

Emily Browning as Babydoll

Vanessa Hudgens as Blondie

Abbie Cornish as Sweet Pea

Jamie Chung as Amber

Jena Malone as Rocket

SUCKER PUNCH~!

A celebrity...

A celebrity...

A job where it's confirmed from the front, behind...and beside...

In front, they have fans who love them, and celebrities are smiling while watching those fans.

Behind them, there are several arrows flying at and piercing their backs.

Unintentionally, the flying arrows sometimes even pierce the fans that are in front.

On both sides, there are masses of people are watching over their front and back.

Even if their backs becomes covered in blood from the arrows piercing from behind, they must smile for the sake of the fans that cheer them on and support them.

If they smile and work hard till the end, the public who's watching them on both sides will slowly move to the front.

However if they can't handle it, and if they're upset a little, (the public) moves to the back or even shoot arrows.

Celebrities don't know how many people are behind them, or what kind of people or what reason they have for shooting the arrows.

They're not allowed to turn around either.

Because if they turn around, the fans in front will become completely shock when

they see the arrows that pierced their backs, and the moment they turn, their entire body will be struck with arrows...

No one knows what kind of people are shooting the arrows, what kind of expression they have, or what thoughts run through their minds as they shoot the arrows.

It's just that they simply enjoy the act itself, and they like it if new celebrities (especially ones with lots of past personal life) comes out.

Celebrities...

They live on stage, and die on internet... a job where it's confirmed from front, back and side...

...that is a celebrity.

Credits to Eunhyuk via cyworld

Tiffany vs SungMin vs Yuri

Korean Top 25 Vocals- Female

Korean Best Voices - Female

1.BoA

2.Ivy

3.Dana

4.Jang Ri In

5.Jang Nara

6.Park Yeeun

7.Lee Hyori

8.Park Jungah

9.Solbi

10.Stephanie

11.Kim TaeYeon

12.Lee JungMin

13.SunMi

14.Jessica

15.Bae Seulgi

16.Nam Kyuri

17.Park Bom

18.Bada

19.Min SunYe

20.Lee Seung Hyun

21.Lina

22.Joo

23.SeoHyun

24.Isak

25.Heebon

Wonder Girls

Jewelery

Girls Generation

KARA

Korean Top 25 Vocals- Male

Korean Best Voices- Male

1.Kim Junsu

2.Kim Jae Joong

3.Se7en

4.Kim RyeoWook

5.Andy Lee

6.Kim Hyun Joong

7.Rain

8.Lee Min Woo

9.Park Yoo Chun

10.KangTa

11.Cho KyuHyun

12.Lee HongKi

13.Jun Jin

14.Shin ChangMin

15.Kim Jong Kook

16.Kim YeSung

17.Shin Hye Sung

18.Sun Ho Young

19.Kang DaeSung

20.Oh Jung Hyuk

21.Lee Seung Gi

22.Kim Jong Hyun

23.Tae Yang

24.Ryan

25.Lee DongHae

DongBangShinKi

Super Junior

SS501

Ft Island

Big Bang

SHINee