one "little" big decision

decisions have made....

some of my classmates knows

but not my clubmates....

2 1/2 months more...

i really wanna stay but i cant find any reasons to stay apart of all my friends are here...

i have to move on...

coz there is no point on staying...

i cant live without doing nothing...

i love my life with crazyness...

i love my life with running around...

now it's my time to leave...

believe or not the life next year will be great if i stay...

but i dont know how to persuade myself to think about the life next year staying...

so i'll say goodbye

In the years to come Will you think about these moments that we shared? In the years to co-ome Are you gonna think it over And how we lived each day with no regret Nothing lasts forever though you want it to The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you Sometimes goodbye ‘though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me Though it’s the hardest thing to sayI’ll miss your lo ve in every way So say goodbye Oh don’t you cry‘cause true love never dies In a year from now Maybe there’ll be things We’ll wish we’d never said In a year from no-ow Maybe we’ll see eachother,standing on the same street corner,no regrets Each and every end is alwayswritten in the stars If only I could stop the world I’d make this last Sometimes goodbye‘ though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me Though it’s the hardest thing to say I’ll miss your love in every way So say goodbye but don’t you cry‘cause true love never dies And when you need my arms to run into I’ll come for you Nothing will ever change the way I feel Sometimes goodbye ‘though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me Though it’s the hardest thing to say I’ll miss your love in every way So say goodbye but don’t you cry‘cause true love –never- dies

~By S Club 7

The Wildcats

中国报报导

大浪打翻漁船1失蹤漁夫漂流32小時獲救（馬六甲25日訊）華裔老漁夫結伴出海捕魚卻遭遇沉船意外，老漁夫在海上漂流32小時后，命大獲救，其巫裔同伴則下落不明。
老漁夫在海上漂流兩天一夜后，用盡最后的力氣，逆著浪努力游向一座小島后，虛脫躺在大石上，被參與搜救的漁夫發現時，已呈半昏迷狀態，嚴重脫水，所幸僅受輕傷，送院后已無大礙。
現年59歲的鄭添益，住在甲市哥打拉沙馬那。他于本週二（22日）下午2時許出海，次日凌晨2時許準備回程時，因浪太大打翻漁船而下沉。
由于事發突然，事主與來自瓜拉庇勞的巫裔中年同伴佐哈里皆來不及穿上救生衣，只能各別抱著木板及油桶，在海上載浮載沉。
僅受輕傷
事主出海時是與其他近10艘漁船友人一起從魯容河口出發，到五嶼島附近捕魚，回程時眾漁船都一起，唯回到河口，卻不見事主的漁船。
與事主友好的一名顏姓漁夫于早上發現仍不見事主漁船，聯絡事主手機又無法接通，于是到事主住家詢問，事后才確定事主與同伴失蹤才報警。
事主的太太黃秋花（52歲，擂茶小販）說，丈夫的漁夫友人于週三早上即組成搜救隊伍，連同水警在海上搜救，家人則租借一架私人直升機，通過上空搜救，一直到傍晚卻始終沒有結果。
昨早，十多艘漁船分成兩組，各別從瓜拉雙溪峇汝及魯容河口出發搜救，其中一艘來自魯容河口的漁船，于10時30分左右發現事主躺在五嶼島附近的哈尤島（PULAU HANYUT）一塊大石上，呈半昏迷，即時通知水警，將事主送往中央醫院急救。
第二次大難不死
鄭添益說，他在2005年也曾在哈尤島附近遭遇沉船事件，當時他的漁船載了一噸的魚，相信漁船無法負荷，所以下沉。
他說，事發時，他是和一名助手一起出海捕魚，當漁船下沉時，他立即撥電給一名一起出海捕魚的友人求救，當時對方也在附近，大約20分鐘后，對方趕到后馬上將他們救起。
他指出，這次是他第二次大難不死，他感到很慶幸。他說，他和助手在22日遭遇沉船時，他手上拿著一片木板和一條繩子，其助手則拿著一個油桶和白開水桶。
“當他們在海上漂浮時，我叫佐哈里拉緊繩子，以免在海上失散。但他在事發的第二天晚上，體力不支，把手松開。起初我叫他的名字時，他還有回應，但聲音卻越來越微弱，到最后連聲音都沒有聽到了。”
來不及撥電求助
鄭添益說，這次發生沉船事件，他根本來不及撥電話求助。他和佐哈里在準備回程時，船開了約5分鐘，就遇上大浪，其漁船船頭先下沉，不到10分鐘，整艘漁船就下沉。
他指出，他患有血壓高、腳部風濕和肩膀酸痛，事發時，他雖然已全身無力，但一直有一股無形的力量要他生存下去。
“我很會游泳，事發時，我只是一直想游到靠島的地方，我知道如果我不游，就沒有生存的機會，這次能活下來，我也沒想到。”
他說，經歷這次沉船事件后，他暫時還未決定是否會繼續出海捕魚。他這次損失6萬令吉，分別是漁船4萬令吉和魚網2萬令吉。
他也感激拿督黃炳火和一群漁夫，在他出事時給予協助，讓他能及時獲救。
海上漂流看到髒東西
鄭添益與佐哈里在海上漂流時，一直看到“骯髒”東西，即使有小島就在附近，他們也不敢游過去。
黃秋花說，其丈夫獲救后告訴她，在海上漂流時，“骯髒”東西一直纏著他們，不只他看到，佐哈里也看到了。
“其實他們附近就有一座小島，但因為島上有那些‘骯髒’東西，他們都不敢游近，只能游到另一座較遠的小島。”
但是，當“骯髒”東西出現時，他們的眼睛就像被矇上一層東西，附近的小島都變不見了，鄭添益只得大喊要這些“骯髒”東西放過他，奇怪的是，每當他大喊后，一切景物也變得正常。
無論如何，他兩人想游上岸，卻屢遭海浪衝走，直到週四清晨，與佐哈里失散的鄭添益用盡最后的力氣，成功靠岸，救了他一命。
“如果那次他無法靠岸，相信就沒命了。這次得救，每個人都說他命大。也因為之前的經歷，我丈夫想再過兩天，到海邊拜祭這些‘好兄弟’。”
妻求得上上籤
黃秋花為丈夫到甲市古剎青雲亭求得上上籤后，回家不及10分鐘，就接獲丈夫獲救的消息。
搜救工作進行了一天一夜，始終毫無進展，黃秋花原已做了最懷的打算，在六神無主下，她在週四（24日）早上，在姑姑的陪同下，到青雲亭求菩薩保佑，其姑姑也替她求籤，竟抽得上上籤。
籤上說：蛟龍來作浪，得遇神先救，龐氏真孝心，桃水龍江邊。且去長江無大事，命逢遇貴喜萬千，只恐前途有變遷，勸君做事可宜仙。
解籤的人告訴黃秋花，籤上說事主遭遇風浪，但最后得貴人相助，是上上籤，叫她不必擔心並耐心等待。
雖求得上上籤，但黃秋花心裡還是不敢抱持希望，返家后不到10分鐘，卻接獲尋獲丈夫的漁夫來電，當她聽到丈夫以微弱的聲音告訴她：“沒事了，不必擔心。”她即時放下心頭大石。
“求籤時我答應菩薩全家吃素3天，丈夫進院這幾天，我也確保他只吃素，報答菩薩的護佑。”

罗宾逊游记~

2009年9月22日，大舅与一个马来人出海抓鱼

这一去，就没有再回来

当天晚上，大舅的好朋友找大舅母

说大舅没有像往常一样去买鱼

也没有像往常一样去和朋友喝茶

他一直没回来，大舅母报警了

警方却迟迟不肯派直升机寻找

三舅出钱找了直升机来寻找大舅

找寻了一天（9月23日），始终没发现大舅的船的踪影

拥有船只的亲戚都下海寻找大舅

三舅也从中国冲忙的回国

我们这些没办法下海帮忙

通过email 、facebook 、sms 、twitter 和 messenger

发放消息，寻找一艘紫色的船，船号是MKF3871

甚至在英国的表哥也帮忙发放消息寻找大舅

但是始终没有消息

寻找了一天后，三舅告诉家人要有心理准备

大家当晚都无法入眠

想到大舅，担心他发生了什么事

担心他的安危

2009年9月24日，我头很痛

一方面是整晚都没睡好，担心大舅

连朋友也说我的眼睛少了往常的闪亮

直升机继续地寻找

五舅在直升机上感觉冷想上厕所

他们降落，决定改变政策

寻找小岛

四舅和五舅在一个岛上发现了大舅

时间是12点多

当时，收到了妈妈简讯

我在学校食堂跳了起来XD

发现大舅时，他已经是奄奄一息状态

他们送他到医院检查

他睡了很久

醒来后，非常口渴因为喝太多海水

大舅说，当他发现他的船即将要沉入海时，他与马来人一人绑一个plastic桶

他也丢了一块木板给那个马来人

他的plastic桶一度进水

他便爬上一块木板耗尽他的力量将水倒掉

当他与那个马来人在海上漂浮时，他们看见那架直升机

但是，不管他们怎么喊，直升机都没有发现他们

不知什么时候，他与马来人失散了

他被海浪冲到麻坡

在麻坡，他看见一座灯塔

他尝试游到灯塔

但是每次他都被冲回原本的地方

尝试了4次后，他放弃了

他游到了一个小岛

但是他却在小岛见鬼了

他便离开小岛

游了12kilometers到了另一个小岛

当时已经是2009 年9月24日早上10时多

他在那岛上不久，就被发现了

但是，那个马来人却没被找到

“大舅，你真的很勇敢，很坚持，很有毅力，您50多60岁的一个人，竟然能在海上与死神搏斗了30个小时，说真的，真不容易。换作是我，我可能没办法撑到最后，可能没办法保持冷静，可能没办法像您一样游了这么多个小时。大舅我敬佩您！”

不知是不是母子之间有着什么心电感应，大舅沉船的那晚，外婆突然向四舅提起大舅曾掉入水井以及有一次大舅的船曾经被雷劈使大舅掉入海里，可能这就是所谓的心电感应吧！



Vietnam with my cousins n sisters

juz me rambling

dunno since when my aunt and grandma shift to the new house to live...
i dunno what happened and i know i shouldnt make comments bout it....
but something i saw just now making me think a lot...
why are they falling apart...
the new house....well it's a road away from the old house...
well it's quite near...
coz you will juz have to walk almoz 20 steps and you will be at the new house...
but it seems to me it is far away....
a family bonding is really far away...
it's pain for me seeing the rooms in the old house is empty and there is grandma living in the new house....
not really all alone but quite lonely...
the only thing that entertaining will be the radio...(well it's when during the weekdays)
sometimes, during weekends...sons and daughters or even grandsons and daughters went back...
i thought this family is the bestest family i've ever have...
having it tore apart is really sad....
i used to ignore it until these few days my stay at grandma's...
it's a bit hollow without grandma in the old house....
there's something missing in the house....
the main purpose we went back to grandma's house
today...i walked into the new house....
it's dark...and it's look like a haunted house...
i walk in, just to take a message to my grandma from my aunt that my aunt will be back soon...
but that feeling....
well...i dunno...
grandma looks really lonely although she didnt show them...
but i feel it...
i wouldnt say who's right or wrong coz i am one of them who doesnt really go and sit beside grandma and talk to her...
lately i've been thinking....
a few years ago....
before the new house was built....
every chinese new year....
we always need to come back early so that we could save a room for our stay at grandma's...
as for those teenagers...well....they just have to cuddle in the family room sleeping on mattresses...
after the new house was built....
every family got their own room...
and the people who slept in family room decrease....
well....the point is i still couldnt cope up with the changes....
not going to bash bout the new house....
coz it is really high class...
whatever it is...
gosh....lost of words...
damned....

(hmm...he probably kill me....when seeing me upload it....anyway the white dress he's wearing...it's mine...lol....enjoy!! god...i am so dead~)

Sometime you must let it go

no running between the classroom and teacher's office during recess....

no working on those reports for approval....

no permits for leaving the classroom...

that's my life after the retirement...

sitting in my classroom....

finishing my work...

reading those crazy notes...

yup...my life is really slow pace now....

unlike a few months ago....

those months it is a bit hetic...

but the life now....

makes me misses my life a few months ago...

i used to help doing all sorts of things since i was in form 1

so...now...as a form 5 student...

it had already become a habit to me....

although the life back then is really crazy...

but i love that life...

i love organising events...

i love helping out to make the event work...

this doesnt means i hate my life now...

but....i just find myself losing it day by day...

i love my life now....

which i can sit at the canteen with my friends laughing about silly jokes...

when i have a lot of different kinds of friends....

when i can go anywhere and focusing in my studies....

hmm....i love both life....

but you cant have both lives all together....

you have to quit one to fulfil your other wish....

i need to choose my road....

just like what we've read in literature....

'The Road Not Taken'

when we came to a crossroad....

we need to choose which to go...

you need to leave behind one to go for another...

and that's is a decision you need to make yourself....

not by anyone...

i am standing at the crossroad now....

not knowing which path to take...

which path could brings me to what i want...

2 months more for me to make a decision...

2 months till the clock strikes 12...

when Cinderella's dreams comes to an end...

to a world that no one knows the future will lead us to....

New Era Counselling Camp during 30/5/09-31/5/09

(Me and my group mates...though i cant remember all of their names....but they makes me touched....we dont really remember each others name coz it is only 2 days camp and we dont have the time to chat easily coz everyone is shy....but one thing i am very sure is that they use their hearts to make friends with you....they knows you better that yourself....mebe coz everyone is a part of counselling....thanks New Era...DIGI, dont forget our 2 days friendship....the day when i know all of you gives your heart to everyone to hear out....and makes me broke down twice knowing that the 2 days of the camp is the last two days i spend with my friend...i will always remember DIGI!!! )

If We Were A Movie....

hmmm...

if we were a movie....

there will be so much drama and things happen around....

we have exam one week ago...

one of my classmates faint outside our classroom a few days ago....

one of my classmates uncle passed away one day ogo....

everything happens....

and life wasnt always like we've imagine...

everyone will have some low periods or even high periods...

we juz need to go thru...

no matter how it goes....

it will not be the thing that we should be control....

hmm....

juz ignore my post for today....

not in a very cherish mood or a very bad mood today....

A song I reccomended~